dream=opp of life? should i? Tuesday, April 25, 2006
heard from many ppl tt dream is always opposite of wad's goin to happen in ur life.. is it true? anyone can tell mi? i sometimes will dream of mi and she breaking up de scene.. really wery pain.. makes mi feels wery sad.. when i tot of tt sentence, i asked myself.. if the sentence is true, i will goin to be with she izzit it? if is true of cos i am veri happy.. but how come the reality doesnt matches? mi and she have nth to say to each other and she avoids mi.. on the same issue, i sometimes will dream of her.. i dream i win her heart.. her become my beloved gf and a lot of happy moments.. but whenever i relate my dream with tis, i felt down.. how i wish i could continue with the dream and nv wake up.. if the sentence is true, i wun be able to be with her.. but the reality doesnt match either.. mi and her maintain a gd friendship in reallity and we veri close.. so does tis sentence true? so will i end up with she or her? i really duno..
maybe ppl who read tis tinks i am 2 timer.. but i am not.. i duno who i really loved.. she is my first love.. feelings for she nv fades.. on the other hand, her is my source of happiness.. i feel really happy with her and she is so simple which attracts mi.. which of tis kind of feelings is true love?
for both she and her now in same poly and her same course as mi.. i tried umpteen of times to ask she for patch.. she reject mi.. she got stead le and ask mi to give up she.. but i still continue trying.. as for her, i nv 'officially' try.. i jus ask her for stead as a joke and her dun wan.. i duno whether should tell her my feelings to her and ask for her hand mah.. i scare if i dun ask her fast, her will forget mi(cos her got her classmates who may replace mi as times goes by).. haiz.. i duno how she feels for mi and wad she tink of mi.. if her reject mi, i afraid her will avoid mi and i get replaced even faster.. i have prepare a msg for her.. but i always dun have the courage to send out.. cos i may have send the msg, but i dun have the strength to endure the consequences if is goin to be a bad wan.. haiz.. xin huan VS jiu ai.. haiz...
