Tuesday, November 28, 2006
oie! jus where u not happy? i really duno what happen to us right now.. suka suka reply bo suka den mai reply.. wtf.. i dun wan to care le lah.. nb.. if 1 day i gone le will u even shed a drop of tears for mi? wo zai ni xin li weights how much? haiz..
Monday, November 27, 2006
duno why.. feeling to down and dull and FURIOUS.. today morning msg her to remind her to bring calculator for esfac de test.. nv reply.. is ok.. nvm.. after tt maths lec got take attendance.. msged her faster go back to take attendance.. aso nv reply.. sua.. nvm.. maybe even got reply will aso be ok..
den go home rot.. few moments ago.. she online.. chatted her.. i ask her so u got went back for attendance? guess wad she replied? no.. anyway.. doesn't matter.. wtf.. wad kind of ans lo.. make me so sad and angry..
sad came from how come she dun even care abt her own stuffs.. why cant she make the effort to go mark attendence so tt her record is clean and nice.. haiz..
angry came from since she seems not to care, why should i get so anxious and care so much for her stuffs? is all wad i done extra? i dun even bother to reply her in msn..
forget it.. from now, i will leave.. when i say leave, i mean it.. LEAVE! but i really can do it mah? deep in my heart, voice sounding u still love her de.. so why leave? i really duno wad to do.. god let mi die pls..
why u chose to hurt mi again and again? T-T
breakaway....................................................................................................................................
no care no love no nth=perfect world Friday, November 24, 2006
nobody cares.. no even a single soul.. not even u!
wad kind of f-ing life am i leading?
tell mi!!
end my f-ing life quickly lah f-ing god!!
devil's law..sentence the soul to death... Wednesday, November 15, 2006
The Devil drives Lamb0rghini with a cup of bl00dy mAry.. speeding down the lonely road.. with a uncleared mind.. half sober... law of the devils chapt584 section520 para131 line4 states tt there's not true love.. this law should be observe for all devils.. so what if a devil break tis law?
nth will happen.. no punishment.. HOWEVER.. heart and mind will be experiencing extreme pain and sadness.. nv ending pain and sadness killing you.. too bad some devil broke tt law.. tinking of the past.. till now.. everything.. we been through so many things together.. happy moments.. sad moments.. everything, everytime, all i have recorded in tis blog.. it seems to be like 'all abt her' de blog..
wadever had done.. wadever had said.. all seems useless.. dun wanna put up a strong front anymore.. feel like breaking down.. lie down on the bed.. have a veri long sleep.. feel like stopping all tis by leaving her.. but jus cant forget her.. cant.. nd her.. love her.. cos of her, everything can be scarificed.. cos of her, life became colourful.. cos of her, broke the law..... =/
but she noes mah? when i sad, when i nd her, when i wanted to share joy with her.. where's she? she seems to be missing.. so many things done for her.. how she feel? duno.. more and more question marks... wei le ta shen me du ke yi.. heart aching.. hao xiang ta zhi dao.. hao xiang ta zhai wo shen bian.. hao xiang wo zhe ta de shou zhi dao yong yuan.......=/
really wish to say ' anqi, wo ai ni' face to face.. but even got the courage to say, does she have the courage to hear? noe tt she dun like to talk abt r/s, chose not to say.. hide everything.. bear the unhappiness.. when saw her smile, everything seems worth it.. hen xiang ta zhi dao zhe yi cie.. but she wun be happy.. so nvm.. dun say ba.. jus let her be happy...... =/
love isnt for devil afterall.. horoscope says sagittarius and leo are perfect match.. but it's not true afterall.. moody... feel like drinking myself to death.. wonder how she feel now.... aso same with mi? duno.. ni shang hai le wo.. que yi xiao er guo..
last post le... blog ended... tis blog is dedicate to her.. the skin, the post and the song... everything.. jus for her..
zhen de lei le.. anqi.. ni dong wo xin li de gan shou mah? ='(
the devil's soul is crucify........
51 things gals duno abt guys.. Sunday, November 12, 2006
saw something interesting.. 51 things gals duno abt guys..
1. Guys hate sluts.
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it
51. Not all guys are *******s. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of you.
tink nobody really go read all cos is kinda long.. lol.. nvm lah.. but if u really do read guys.. is veri true..
tis she aso duno all these ba.. tt y she duno how i feel.. haiz.. =/
after much consideration.. decided not to buy le.. not tt i dun bear to spend the money on her.. is cos i scare she wun accept and sees tt as a pressure.. god! i hope i din made the wrong decision.. maybe christmas eve ask her out for dinner or sth.. i really hope she will come with me.. hmm.. see ba.. tt's all i have to say...
where u?
lost.................................................................................................................................
Saturday, November 11, 2006
today.. got 1 piece of new.. i duno is gd or bad.. anyway.. the pink T10 is found.. bugis sony gallery and parkway sony gallery.. same price.. but if buy the cam, can use 20 bucks to buy a memory stick(1GB).. and with my friend's recomendation, got free gift.. the memory stick kinda attractive eh? haha.. but.. but.. the promotion ends tml..
tml last day.. stocks are limited.. if dun buy now next time maybe cant find le.. contradictary..
questions poping out.. should i get it for her? buy le will she accept? or she sees it as a pressure to stead? angie.. i really feel like asking u.. how u feel for me de? do u really like tt cam or jus say say nia tt time? haiz.. my friend say maybe u are taking advantage of me.. are u? in my heart i believe u are not.. all tis i really dun dare to ask... i dun dare to break the ice.. i dun wan to go back to the days without u by my side.. oh god!
tonight tink would be able to sleep le.. how? buy or not to buy? feeling veri vex.. angie!! haiz.. =/
Friday, November 10, 2006
today went sch.. sian.. whole day real estate business.. so many dumb law to remember.. -.- nvm lah.. anyway jus 2 hours.. after tt went meet her for lunch at hg mall.. along the way chat with her.. she say her class following raymond wong( rebus tutor) to macau.. but cant find a suitable budget.. say add a bit more can go disneyland hongkong le..
eh.... i wan to ask her to go with mi de leh.. haiya.. so suay.. nvm.. dun her class really goin mah.. duno lah.. see how.. i aso duno how to ask her.. nvm nvm.. let her find out herself.. lol.. she will nv noe i wanted unless which dumb de go tell her my blog.. den acc her go take bus den i go home le.. sleep... sleep sleep.. sleep sleep sleep.. until 7 den wake up.. zzzz..
later duno go out a not.. see how ba.. feel like drinking.. drinking not cos not happy.. cos wanna relax myself. haha.. anyway the jap de presentation coming le.. haven even done a thing.. maybe do during weekends ba..
tml she goin sch for director's cup de captain ball tournament.. she wasnt confident of winning.. but nevertheless, jus wanna wish her gd luck.. sleep well tonight and do ur best tml girl! ^.^
xiang zhe ni......... =/
Thursday, November 09, 2006
while watching tv.. saw the hktb de ads.. promoting tis christmas season de disneyland.. all the char deco the buildings and the falling the snow..
this christmas i really wish i could spend with her in disneyland.. kinda romance uh? gentle snow falling from the sky with accompanation of mickey minnie etcs.. chio lightings during the night.. 2 person walking hand in hand, scrolling together in the cold weather.. wen xin eh? haha.. dreaming.......
wad kind of experience will i get......
who will i spend with......
where will i be...........
during tis christmas? =/
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
tis few week i have been goin around lookin for tis sony cam T10 pink color.. 599 bucks. not for myself.. but is for her..
not enough money.. gave up my maple account.. sold my maple things for sing dollars.. total only earn $121.. sry to those who wanted to buy more.. but i really dun have le.. squuezed everybit tt worth money out le.. and aso wanna say thanks for those who buy from me to help mi..
special thanks to the following
1. kengkoon
2. jer
3. leon
4. jun rong
wadever i can do to get money i sell.. maybe if not enough last resort, sell off my w900i ba.. jus a phone.. wad matters is her happiness.. unfortunately, whole singapore courts, best denki and harvay horman all no pink.. sony galley aso dun have.. i really hope i can find and give it to her.. seems impossible yea? but i still continue to save money in case got.. maybe find from ebay? try ba..
yin wei ai ni shou yi bu xi yi cie.. =/
few days w/o u.. days w/o u were weird... feeling empty in my heart..
' where you? i'm lost. come back find me and we walk together hand in hand ok?'
' i hate the feeling of being lost.. i hate losing u.. come back hao mah?'
u know mah?
u understand mah?
=/
Thursday, November 02, 2006
banish from the heaven to hell.. smile wiped off.. dead.. nv ever wake up..
freeze my body.. freeze my feelings.. freeze the atmosphere..
fallen on 2/11 ='(
today managed to went out with her.. to wisma and bugis.. although is not long, but i am truely happy from the bottom of my heart.. sry to her cos i grab her hands and dash across the road.. she nearly got bang.. sry angie.. and thanks for everything today.. ^.^
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
today go sch.. din go for lec.. sian.. tink she aso din go de lah.. lol.. nvm.. den saw her when walking to PSPS.. rushing le.. den nv say hi to her.. but got msg her.. so is nth.. during psps is veri funny lo.. discussing abt stress and time management.. write factors tt cause stress and ways to counter stress.. our grp still okok.. other ppl write "PCC is a gd way of counter stress" =.= zzz diao.. pic above( post next time.. ps..).. veri... veri.. speechless..
den today no contact time.. 12 end le.. wait until 4 lo.. meanwhile mi michelle jerry and marcus went to eat at engineer canteen.. den chat.. chat until 'my story'.. -.- keep asking mi to give her up since nth happen after so much thing i have done.. dey dey purposely play wang lee horn de kiss gdbye.. den got 1 line which goes ' fu chu de ai shou bu hui' den jerry go add ' po chu de shui shou bu hui' i seems ok.. but in my heart.. it strucked me hard.. i really hope wad dey all saying is NOT goin to come true..
after CDS tut and lec, on the way back home.. was thinking.. wad if everything came true.. wad if we really beyond hope.. tears filled to the brim liao.. but din drop.. heart was aching.. haiz..
wo men zhi jian de ai shi bu shi bu ke neng de?
ai ni chuo le mah?
