jus reach home tonight.. it seems to be like any other previous night.. but today not tt tired.. cos during play, it wasnt natural.. i jus feel it.. it was like staging a show.. not natural.. sometimes i tink how come will not natural.. izzit cos boi and ger? izzit cos of rx and yb? or izzit cos of peggy and yufang? but now it seems to mi like is boi and ger make it unnatural.. boi settle peggy and yufang den rx and yb aso okok le.. the only unsolved prob is boi and ger.. it seems weird aso.. i duno wad ppl are thinking.. everything now seems to be acted out.. kinda fake.. really dun like.. guess wad i doing now? 1 cup of ice infront of mi.. eating while i blog.. trying to make myself numb... numb enough to resist all tis.. haiz.. weird weird ppl in the weird weird world.. o.O